Okay. I`ve managed to calm down and recompose my feelings. Sorry for all the rubbish i`ve said just now but i really had to let it out before i go bonkers.

My heart is really deeply wounded, wounded to an extent whereby i dont want to let anyone in. I know that the fastest way for me to forget is to get another better guy but i dont want to end up hurting another person. I may show that im happy & alright on the outer surface, but no one will ever know what im going thru inside. Every single little thing he does, hurts me deeply and every single word he says are like little knives stabbing my heart. Someone tell me whats the meaning of true love? Why must all good things come to an end? Arent they suppose to last? I try very hard to show that im happy but yet the sadness comes through unknowingly. I`ve told marcus before, if he wants me to give up & forget him, he`ll have to tell me that he totally have no more feelings for me but i`ve yet to hear it. I`ve got many qns to ask him, but im afriad to ask, afraid that the answers would be answers i do not want to hear. I have tried many a times to stop thinking about him but yet, every single thing reminds me of him. The pig & other soft toys he gave me are still lying on my bed, i havent got the courage to chuck them aside bcos i have a feeling that someday, when he has had enough fun, he`ll come back. The msges he sent when we were tgt are also still in my inbox, yet to be deleted. I really miss our past. Hais..

Marcus, just wanna let you know that every single thing we`ve done tgt in the past, i`ll treasure them and they`ll be etched in my heart. I love you despite all the hurts you`ve caused and i hope that someday, you`ll come to realise how much i really love you.

Anyways, enough of all this. I will upload pictures i took the past few days and im off to idle my life away.

Okay. This is all. Look happy on the outside, sad on the inside. ;x. Hais. Dont mind the fats you see. hahs

Me & My sisters.

Im not used to the freedom i have now.